The warmness of my tears is enough to protect me at this late hour of night. I had never thought of such a “lonely moment” and the irony of the situation lies in a very fact that despite of having a complete family, I’m all alone in this whole world.
Pinkish glow, tinted clouds, spreading sunshine and melody of birds announce the start of a new day.But, I find no time to “savor this moment” of natural beauty because I have to perform “bundle of tasks” each day.
There actually exist a “wide chasm” between my experience of daily life and my husbands daily routine.
Here I’m mopping the floor, washing the dishes, cleaning the house and pressing the clothes, dressing up my kids and frying fish.
And, after all this hectic routine I simply hate the moment when he returned in the evening and asked in his robotic voice ” How was your day?”.
This is so ridiculous because my “uncombed hair” and “stained shirt” are enough to tell my ordeal. And, this does not ends here as he loves to find faults in my work.
So, despite of my utmost efforts he always succeeds in finding out a simple “mote of dust”. Sometimes, I wonder that perhaps he finds pleasure in finding ” mistakes in my cooking”.
But, then I use to assure myself that it is not his fault, It is all because of his ” male chauvinism”.
If only words could express my feelings then there would be a pile of scribbled notes in front of me.But, pages can’t bear the “misery of my pain”.
I try to find pleasure and solace in my dreams.Those dreams of my childhood were so pleasant; but this reality is so dreary and I simply wish for a moment of joy and happiness in my life.
The clock is ticking fast and everyone is sound asleep. Soon, it will be a time for my kids to wake up for school and then daily chores for a day will be started. The saltiness of tears seems to stabilize me somehow and I stop crying. Perhaps, mere words of “appreciation” will boost me to move forward.
I can recall these beautiful lines from ” Woman Work” by ” Maya Angelou”
Shine on me, sunshine
Rain on me, rain
Fall softly, dewdrops
And cool my brow again
Storm, blow me from here
With your fiercest wind
Let me float across the sky
‘Till I can rest again
Fall gently snowflakes
Cover me with white
Cold icy Kisses and
Let me rest tonight
Sun, rain, curving sky
Mountain, oceans,leaf and stone
Star shine, moon glow
Your’e all that
I can call my own